Goals! Goals! Goals! Goals! Goals!

There. Five Goals.

Oh, that wasn't what Riddley Walker meant me to do? Ah, I see. It's another Internet Meme. Well, I'm up for it.

I'm going to dispense with the already commonplace goals of 'Get rid of Loans' and 'Get Fit', because - be honest - we all want that. I don't notice anyone sitting in a corner ripping up money or stuffing their faces with a very determined look on their faces. And if they do, they regret it immediately afterwards.

Here are 5 things I really, really would like to achieve and think are possibly in my league somewhere in the future.

1) Write a game

This is still my #1 goal, even though I'm almost 50% there. I've penetrated the games industry and have been working in it for a year (exactly today!) now. But there's more: Somewhere in the future I'd like to start my own development studio and write at least one published game with me at the helm of it. I need a lot more development experience and probably more experience in mainstream programming languages, but I'm making headway.

2) Write a book

What do I know about writing? Nada. Well, I'm fairly proficient at the language I'd like to do it in, but do I have any ideas or inspiration? Nope. Not yet. But the written medium has fascinated me for a long time, and possible ties in with the #1 goal above. My game would probably be epic and lyrical in nature. So until the muse comes to me, I'll keep buying 'How to write a book' books and read internet sites.

3) Act

I've done a (very little) bit of acting in my past. Veeeery amateur theatre and one filmed role (I don't think it's ever seen the light of day), but you know what? I enjoyed every single second of it. Even the rehearsals - where I'm crap at remembering my lines - when I saw everything coming together. So I'd like to do it again. England is the country of Amateur Dramatic Societies, so maybe when I'm old and gray...

4) Excel

I just want to be good at something. It's my #2 insecurity (#1 is forthcoming) and probably an ever-growing inferiority complex. But I think it would be nice to be recognised as an expert in something. Something I can write about. Something I can publish about. But what? Beats me.

5) Learn to live

I'm scared to death of Death. Yes, the Captial 'D'. At best I'm an agnost who's convinced there's absolutely nothing at the other end of the tunnel. At my worst I clamp up and don't want to move for fear of dying. I don't fly, I am fearful in cars if they go too fast (ditto for trains and buses) and have severe hypochondriac tendencies. Why can't I just let go and do stuff I might enjoy? I'd love to, and so would Amanda. We could fly to our holiday and I'd drive along the small roads on the mountains.

But I don't.


There. My 5 main goals. I'd tag people, but my collection of blog-friends is only growing very slowly. I'll do it later. Maybe I need to make that a goal as well... Hmmmm...